Struggling.

So, this year really has been a haul. It's been a series of unfortunate events. It's been rough. It's been challenging. But, this year has also been fantastic. This year has given me so many good memories. It's been the best of times, and the worst of times... like a freaking Dickens novel.


I know it has been a while since I have written. I'm pretty sure that no one reads this anyways. But, why would that stop me from writing? I make my own rules. So, I am still going to write and vent, and speak my mind.


Recently, it's been a rough haul. I have no one to really talk to about what's going on. Almost all of my best friends are too busy for me. My family... well... they're not the easiest people on the planet to talk to. They judge, they criticize. I know, family loves you. Still, it isn't always easy having every little move examined under a microscope. 


On the friends note: I don't get it. I don't understand how you could be too busy to nurture your friendship. I'm always busy, but I can still make time for my friends. I expect the same to be done for me. If i am always trying to renew our vows of friendship, and trying to see what's going on... MAKE AN EFFORT to spend time with ME. It really hurts how my friends pretty much do not care. It was one friend, and now it's multiple. I'm starting to wonder if I am just a toxic friend that no one wants to have around... not a pleasant thought. I would like to think that people somewhat care about me, but some days, I wonder.


Family: the worlds worst critics. Seriously. If I am talking to you about colleges, don't criticize every single one. I know they are expensive. Everything is. I don't know exactly what i want to do, but I DO want to get out of the South. GET ME OUT. You may LOVE it, but I really do not think that it's for me. Also, if I did not ask for your opinion on my colleges, shut your pie hole. I have enough stress already. I do not need to hear all of your commentary, and you telling me what to do with my life, and telling me what i do wrong. I am SICK and TIRED of it. Family is supposed to support you, not tear you down. Please just try to understand that I want a good college. None of you went. Don't hate on me because the world has changed.


Life: I am so excited to see what is to come. I seriously can not wait. But, I am also not ready to move on. I enjoy my life. I enjoy what I have now. I just want to know what the future holds. I want to have the best of both. I don't want to feel sad, angry, frustrated, nervous, anxious, or too enthralled with the future all of the time. I don't want to feel the aforementioned emotions for no reason. I want to just be happy.


That's all for now people. I will be back soon. Have a Happy Holiday Season! -Eric.

Single or Not?

Me and one of my friends recently had a discussion on whether to be single or not is better in highschool. Every week it seems like someone else is getting into a relationship and we were trying to figure out if that was the right thing to do or not. 




Some people get into relationships for security. They like having something holding them down. Some people do it out of pressure. Some do it just to say that they do. 


Having someone high school might not be the best idea. You are supposed to live it up, because you only have one shot at it. Why would you want the stress and drama of it? Sometimes there is an expectation to have one. Whatever the case, you should wait. It really depends on the person. But once again, don't ask someone why they are single. It may be by their choice or they can't find someone.

How to Save a Friendship? When a Friendship Starts to Die...

I have heard it said that friendships are like stars: the brightest ones burn out the fastest. One of mine is on life support at the moment, and it was one of the brightest friendships I have ever had. There were people at school who asked about it. It happened quickly, and sadly, is dying slowly and painfully. Being strapped on life support is not good for the friendship. It needs to die or come back to life. This is my statement about it. I do not know what the other party thinks or feels, but I have a feeling I will never know.

Right now, I have a friendship that I personally believe is on its’ last leg. My friend got a boyfriend a few months ago, and since then we have moved apart. We used to be as close as thieves. Now, we barely talk to each other. All she ever goes is spend time with her boyfriend. When I mentioned that we should go for dinner and catch up, she was like, oh that sounds fun! Little did I know that she would tell the boyfriend. He texted me and got all territorial. He said that his girlfriend should not go to dinner with another guy. After a few hours of going back and forth, he said that she asked him to go on the attack. Apparently, I stress her out and make her nervous. It was her idea to attack me. This got me thinking.

I personally believe that when you are friends with someone, you are in it for the long haul. If you are going to commit to being best friends with someone, it is not a one year fling. It is not something that you can throw away after a short amount of time. The aforementioned friend does not think that apparently. You don’t need to spend time with a friend! Who needs one on one conversations? This friend and I have been distant for about 5 months. We didn’t talk for a while, and we had just started patching up when she got distant again. I thought that her boyfriend was pulling her away. I confronted him one night about it, and he said that it was her decision ultimately.

What kind of friend lets a friendship die and ignores and shoves off the other friends efforts to salvage the relationship. Who does that? You should not treat best friendships like a dirty rag. This person and I hung out all last summer. We did everything together. We went out to dinner, we hung out. We got along very well. I thought that we were super close. Then, the glue started separating. We spent less and less time together, and now when I want to spend some more time together, she does not want to spend that time. All she wants to do is hang with her boyfriend, away from all life and activity. And then she had the nerve not to tell me that she didn’t want to do anything. She did not have the guts or common courtesy to tell me. Now I am left alone looking at the apparent ruins of a once mighty friendship.

A friend is a person that you invest time and energy in, and a person that you have lots of time getting to know, and continuing to get to know. What you put in, you get out. You have to work really hard to grow a friendship. But, that hard work will give you a fantastic friendship. When you don’t work on a friendship, it withers away and goes the way of the dinosaurs. This friends boyfriend denied this tonight, but he is wrong. This friendship is an example of that. If me and the friend had spent more time and energy over the past few months, we would be closer now. But, with no care, the friendship is on life support. Time will tell what will happen, but for now, that person is getting deleted out of the favorite list on my iPhone. No conversation leads to destruction. When you are friends with someone, you should not give up when the going gets tough. The tough should get going and keep the friendship alive. Friends are an investment. Treat them with care. If you don’t, one day you will wake up alone with no one there for you because you were not that for them. At the end of another failed or failing relationship, you will see that the hard work needs to be on both ends. If it is not, the friendship, whether real or not, will begin to die.

Confusion

Where do you want to go to college? What do you want to do? What job do you want? Where do you want to live? Are you single? Taken? What's up? What are your grades? Why aren't you doing better? Why did you do that? Why are you upset? Why, Why, Why, Why Why??

Over the past few weeks, par to course, I have been asked a gazillion questions. People ask about every small detail of my life. Personally, I do not know what is so freaking interesting... I'm not that exciting... there is not that much exciting stuff going on right now. i don't have the new car, big trip coming up, the girlfriend, the amazing grades, the amazing perfect days. True, I will keep things interesting, but my life really can't be that interesting. Sure, I have my daily mean comments about a certain few people, and sure, I can be a walking disaster, but why do I warent so much attention?

I really appreciate that people care so much... don't get me wrong. I just don't see why they are so interested. I do not really know what I want my whole life to be right now. I guess you are supposed to know these things at the end of your sophomore year of high school? I'm glad that people care so much about what I do, but is it really that fascinating? I am confused on what exactly I want at the moment. Sure, I have my small goals, but something feels out of place. Something is not right. Beats me what it is. When i find out what is missing, I am going to go out and find it! I can be happy, but I want to be happier. I want to be better. I want to be the best. When I find the magic key, I will let everyone know. Until next time, what is the key?

Prom, Frustration, Venting.

Oh Prom... that annual tradition that can make any person not going, or not asked like a social miscreant. The thing that shows you the wants and the want-nots. The thing that shows you where you fall on the takeable pecking order. It's the best of times, and the worst of times.


This year, there has been more drama with my schools prom than I can remember. People fighting over who they are taking, where they are going, who someone else is going with, what group that they are going with... bla bla bla. It's getting kind of old.


I personally wanted to go. I still do. I have tons of senior friends that I want to spend some more time with, and prom is one of those things that you get to do once in your lifetime. I wanted to see and be seen. Yes, I do have that shallow vain side to me:). It kills me that these obnoxious immature freaks are going with perfectly decent people and I don't get to go. I asked my butt off. I went around to countless people and asked. I tried my hardest, but I guess I was not good enough to go. I asked some people who said they were going with friends, but then 3 weeks later, they are going with this other guy. Hmm... lies much? 


I probably have blogged on this already, so bite me. This subject has been driving me nuts for a while. I still can not wrap my head around why I am never good enough for anyone. I have tried for YEARS to be good enough, but I always fall short. I am never up to par. I am never what someone wants. I have tons of friends, but I have had one person in the past 5 years that has liked me for more than a friend. I don't really care about having a relationship right now, as they are a boatload of stress, and I don't really want to add on any stress right now. But I do want the market interested in me. I want some buyers to look at me. I am not some ghetto real estate in da hood. I am myers park. I am the peninsula. I am the harbor. I am the gated community. I am the million dollar penthouse. Can someone come look? Can someone show interest. I know that I have my whole life out in front of me, which is good. I am just tiring of people asking if there is anyone in my life. Not these is not. Sorry to disappoint. My younger brother gets more action than I do. Pathetic.. yes. I take satisfaction in some things that I will not mention, to avoid sounding self indulgent. But I will say this. I am sick and tired of every single person treating me like I am somewhat inferior because I have no girlfriend or prospects in sight. I am party to blame I guess. Who knows what my turnoff is. But I will also say this. My school is as small as a speck of dust. There is one group of people that dates. There is no one that is my type, whatever that is, at my school. It's just not a good fit. I guess its bad that I cant make it fit for now. 


When I do find someone that really catches my interest at my school, people will know. If someone ever shows interest in me, I will let people know, as that will me a very... momentous occasion. Until someone looks and likes, wipe the look of shock off of your freaking faces and cut me a little slack. Thanks.

The Next Adventure.

Over the past year and a half, there has always been a new adventure on the horizon. But, now there is nothing on the horizon. It feels weird, having nothing huge to look forward to. Sure there are the little things coming up, but nothing huge.


Life is made up of adventures big and small. There are the grand adventures, and the daily ones that last maybe 30 seconds. Each new friendship, each new trip, each new experience adds up to the big adventure. All of the smaller adventures add up to the big one.


I just got back from Spain yesterday, and during this trip, I had the chance to become friends with some deaf kids from California. They were really cool, and tought me a lot about sign language, and people in general. They make things work. They don't let one thing hold them back. I find that very admirable.

Right now, I am waiting for my next adventure. I have been home for 48 hours, and I am ready for the next big thing. I am a restless person, and like to be on the move. It's weird not having much to look forward to, and I am ready to be ready for something again. Until next time, and the next adventure.... here's waiting!

What I Miss...

Over the past few years, a lot has happened. People have moved into, out of, and all around my life. It has been like a crazy tornado. As I listen to some music from a few years ago, I am feeling up to a little reflecting... where am I now? Am I where I planned? Who am I? I hope that I'm not the only one asking these questions or reflecting...

People: Over the past 3 or so years, I have moved through a few best/really good friends. I have some amazing friends who left my school, and I have fallen out of touch with them. I miss them dearly, but with life being as crazy as it is, I never ever get to see them. It's like fate is pulling us apart, and I HATE that feeling. I have some best friends who changed and I have fallen out with them. I have best friends who I fought with who have moved on. Life is like an earthquake... it's moving, and every now and then the movement is violent and deadly.

Life: Every year when I go to the beach, I walk the beach at night and think. I don't know why I do this... I just think that it helps me wrap up the year. Yes, my years revolve around July. Mock me if you please. Life is always changing, and that can be a good thing. BUT, it can be a bad thing too. People you trust and rely on go away. People move in. People move out. You get into fights, or there are bad words, and then what do you have? I make goals of things to accomplish each year. For some reason, I never really get through the list. There are always things I need to do, but I can't ever get around to them. I want to make them happen, and I try to, but it just doesn't work.

I have also been thinking about the Europe trip I went on last summer. I can not believe that it has been a year since we were planning it, and almost a year since I went. It does not seem that way at all. I remember planning it, and discussing it, and looking forward to it. I remember becoming friends with the people going on the trip, and I remember getting on the plane, grins on our faces. I remember the trip, and I hope that the memory never fades. I want to get together with the group more, but for some reasons, our crazy schedules never seem to click. I plan stuff, but it snows, or people don't come, or what have you. It just feels sad, because I made some great friends on the trip, and I would LOVE to see them some more, you know? I miss them...

Music: Right now, I am listening to some music from the end of my 8th grade year. I remember the hope and optimism I felt about high school. Something new, something exciting. I couldn't wait. This is some great music by the way. That year was an amazing music year. I wish there was some killer music still there. I'm looking for it. I find it hilarious how music characterizes a period in ones life. I can remember where I listened to this, and how I felt about it, and I can still feel some of these feelings. Music is my beat. It's how I get through life. I love it, and I can't believe how much life has changed over these past few years, and how music has changed, and how some of my moods and feelings have changed as well. It's a crazy world that we live in...

Yes, I know that it isn't too healthy to look back on the past too much, but the present isn't as great as I thought it would be. Maybe it will get better. I either look ahead or look back. I am trying to appreciate the now, but it seems that it isn't so hot, and needs to get better. Tomorrow is a new day after all!

I encourage you to look back, ahead, and to the now. It is pretty therapeutic. While you're at it, listen to some old music for me. You'll appreciate it later!:)

Immaturity

I go to school with a bunch of immature people. So immature that I think that they have reverted to the 5th grade. It never ceases to amaze me that they can be so ridiculously immature, and still have friends/popularity/what have you. Really people, we are in high school.


You may ask... how are they so immature. For starters... the guys in my grade are taking to shooting bb's at people, using pens. Like a supped up spit ball. They shoot it at people during class, during lunch, and any time in between. They think it's SO funny to hear people say "ouch" when they get hit, and think its hilarious to risk shooting someones eyes out. People shot spit balls in elementary school. We are now in high school, 5 years later. Seriously? What's the deal?


Another example... Thinking STD's are HILARIOUS in health class. Ha ha. How funny. They are like a bunch of middle schoolers.


Then, the jokes. They tell the most immature jokes on the planet, and others egg them on. Come on! It's not funny to tell jokes that you told in middle school. It's so annoying.


Then there are the actions. People in my grade just act immature. They do immature things ALL THE TIME. They think it's so funny to put the peanuts only table sign on your back, and let you walk around for 30 seconds with it on. They also think it is hilarious to hide your water bottle in the classroom and watch you look for it. They think its funny to drag their feet on your shoes while you are walking, think it's funny to start giggling for no reason during class. They treat no one with respect, and act like a bunch of  5 year olds.


Now, I don't know if this immaturity is just due to my school being a private school, or just the ages of the people in my grade. Granted, I am older than everyone in my grade at my school, and that might be why I think that they are so stupid. Or maybe, it's because there is no one to beat them up at my school, or tell them to grow up. 


I think that it is time for all these people to grow up, get some maturity, and realize that they are in high school. Crazy concept huh? We're not in middle school any more. High school is a very different place, treat it as such.

That Kind of Week...

So... it has been a particularly rough week. To start off with, I did not do so hot on an Algebra quiz. Then I had a stressful meeting with the newspaper. Then things just started to go downhill.


I am exhausted and stressed, and just fed up with it all. I have had a lot going on over the past week, and it has been one of the longest of my life. I have been told that I have been a little grumpy, which I am sure I am. I haven't slept well, except for the night I had a Tylenol PM. 


Yesterday, I had PE. That class is one of my least favorite classes. I do not see the point of running up and down a gym, chasing balls. Well, during warm ups yesterday, I had to crawl across the gym, carrying someone who weighs around 160 pounds. I have no upper body strength, so it was definitely not a good experience. So, today my arms hurt so bad that I can barely lift my arm or grab anything. Not fun.


Tomorrow, I have a math test that I have been stressing about all week. Math is one of the hardest subjects I have, due to the teacher. So, I am very nervous. I did awful in math last semester, so I have to pull up my grade so I make it into college. I need to do well!! An A is needed, for sure. To make things EVEN better, I have a huge lit test RIGHT after the math test. So I will be extremely burnt out tonight.


I feel a ton of stuff stacking up, and I have so much going on, that I just want to scream. So much to do, so little time. I need to get so much done!!


Yes, I know that I am sounding like negative nelly, but I am having one of those weeks. Hopefully, I can only go up from here... I am sure that I am driving my friends CRAZY. I am just in a hopeless mood. Also, I had a not so successful meeting with my guidance counselor this week, which only spurred on my mood. I just need a big fat starbucks, or a vacation! 


Making things even better, my parents are going out of town next week, leaving us with babysitters. They're nice people, but I always wind up doing all of the work for them. Lord knows why because the babysitters. They are payed. I am not...


But, I am going to try to be more positive starting now!! It is almost the weekend.


My question of the day is... when faced with a negative situation, how do you react?

Love?

So, today is Valentines Day. The day of love, and happiness, and togetherness. The day that people in high school, at least, are all happy, in love, and gushing about how the person they are with is the love of their life. How they will be with them FOREVER. How cute they are together. Blablabla. You get the picture.


Well, in high school, do you really know the love of your life? Is your valentine really the one? Are they your soulmate? I think not. Personally, I think that love takes time, and maturity, and that is not really something that you have in your typical high school relationship. Love is based on a wide array of things. Things like trust, loyalty, character, and really knowing the other. You can't say that you love the other person, just based off the way that they look, or the way that you feel about them at the moment. Those looks will fade, and those feelings will die. When that happens, what is left? If it is really love, you love the person within. Not your feelings, or the way that they look.


Now, I may be a little cynical. I don't think that love is a common thing. I think that lust is a common thing. Lust is when you like the way the other looks. Love is liking the person underneath. Genuinely caring about the person underneath. Today, lust is more played up than love. People think that their lust is love. If you try to correct them on that, they get defensive, and say you are a cynical person. I prefer to think of it as honesty. True friends are honest. I appreciate honesty. So, why should I withhold the honest truth from you?


The lust that people feel gives them a high. That high lets them walk all over the place, in a happy little cloud. Holding hands, making out in public. Come one people. Your PDL isn't needed. (PDL= Public Display of Lust). That honestly bothers me too. I don't need to see you grope each other all over the place. It's not necessary. It's annoying for the rest of us. We don't need to see how much you "dig" each other. You can tell us, and that is perfectly fine. Shocking concept eh?


The thing with Valentines, or as I prefer, Singles Awareness, is that the PDL's are encouraged. Embraced. If you don't have someone to lust over, or to gush over, you are an unattractive outcast. Thrown out. An untouchable. How lame are you to not have someone to lust over for a weekend. You are just pathetic. You are made to feel like you are inadequate... how dare you not have someone?


Well my point is, we need to be careful how we label love. It may just happen to be lust. It may be fake. Try to be nice to those of us who are single, and don't have the whole world lusting over us. Until next time, there is one last question...


 What is love?

Venting Over the Past Few Months

So, on December 19th, my world changed forever. My grandad died, suddenly, in an accident. He was 63, and in the prime of his life. He was taking people to their cars from a party at his house. He hit a patch of ice, and hit his head after flipping his vehicle. Needless to say, that was one of the worst days of my life. My Opa, my hero, was DEAD. Just like that. Over the next few days, digging through pictures, and living through memories, having an 1800 person visitation, and a 1000+ person funeral, I saw what an impact my Opa had on the world. I knew he was important... duh. His last name would tell you that. But, seeing all of the people, the scope of the impact, just shocked me. It showed that one person really can make a difference. You always hear that they can't, but that's a load of crap. They can make a huge difference.

The months since have been very hard. There are the good days and the bad days. The days you feel like crap, and the ones that you are stunned. The ones you don't want to continue forward, but you have to. The days you cry when you get home. The days that you want to just be. My friends have on the most part helped me through this. I feel the love from them, on the most part, and it is just great. The prayers and support help tremendously.

One thing that has made it a little harder is that a teacher at my school, who was 25 was in a tragic accident about a mile down the road from the school one thursday morning. It was just over a month past my opa, and the event dug up fresh wounds. The scabs reopened. It led to another hard week, but not as hard. We made it through. The funeral was very solum, but it honored her life. This event was also around 2 years since the Herbert brothers, who went to my school, were killed in a car accident. This incident dug up memories from then too. Not the easiest thing in the word, needless to say.

Yesterday, February 12th would have been my Opa's 64th birthday. We celebrated as a family and remembered. We watched a few videos of his life, and remembered many good memories, but it was still a hard day. There were definitely tears shed, and hearts hurting. It is the first of many birthdays to come that will be sad. But, we have to try to move forward. You can not dwell on the past, and what could have been. What you could have done. That will tear you to shreds. What you do is pray, and ask God to help you through. Yes, that is a Sunday School answer, but it is the truth. God is bigger than any crap that can happen to you, and he will help you move through tragedy. You also need to let out emotions and vent. Which is why I have this blog. Not many, if any, people read this, but it is my way to vent. Writing and music help me deal. Negative emotions bottled up will rip you apart. Positivity is key. It can be hard, and is hard, but think of the good if possible. That is something my Oma told me, and it is very true. You can not dwell on negative things. It will make you miserable. Look on the good. You will be happier for it.

The remaining question, for now is... How will you deal with the curveballs that life throws at you, and who will you lean on, or what will you lean on? When something that is a major part of your life is taken away, what will you do? How will YOU react?

While I'm At It (and full of opinions)

Political-Why does it seem like our politicians are intent on sinking the whole freaking country? it disgusts me. stupid people. like seriously, we dont need health care! if you want socialized health care, move to freaking canada. hello?? Also, the Republican retaking of Congress... it can be a good thing. But I just happen to think that we need to get rid of ALL of the politicians that have lied to their constituents. All of them. And, we need to cut pork out of the bills. And return the TARP money, FREEZE spending, and also reduce the deficit. Easy ideas. They can be accomplished, but the wonderful idiots on Capitol Hill have decided that it is a good idea to spend like money is going out of style.

Fake people- Hmm. This is a topic that I am always happy to talk about:) I go to school with a bunch of these people! People who act like they are your friends, but then the next second, they are not. It never ceases to amaze me. People, act like who you are. It is SO much easier. It really is a simple idea. If you act like who you are, more people will like you. AND you don't get caught up in a lie:)

Events- everything happens for a reason, even if we do not know the reason. everything works out in the end. we just gotta keep believing... if you stop, then what do you have? A LOT has happened recently, and I am trying to keep a positive attitude. It is hard, but I have to try. Things happen. It is your lot in life. You need to make the best, and try to see the good in what has happened.

Snow- Over the past 2 months, it has snowed three times, and two of them have been pretty good snows. I personally love snow. Not enough to live with it all winter, but enough to enjoy it every time we get it. Where I live, life slows down for snow, which can be quite annoying. But, I love how we get some time to sleep and relax, and the cleanness of the snow. It's pure white. Like washing away the bad there is. It is pretty, and the air is crisp outside when it does happen to snow. I love the smell of snow. and the way footprints look in it. I also love the way that flowers look under snow. It's just a cool thing. Every time it does snow, I try to take pictures if it in some way, shape, or form. I just like it:). There are the losers who whine about snow. They need to move to California or Florida. Snow is part of winter. Enjoy the season! (:

Valentines Day- What is the big deal with this day? Call my cynical, but I really don't have a strong love for Valentines. I prefer Singles Awareness Day, or SAD. It really gets on my nerves to see all of the happy, lovey dovey couples draped all over each other, in their happy bubbles, while those of use who are single, or those of us in high school who haven't found the love of our lives yet, get to sit and watch them. It really gets annoying. Lord forbid you be single on Valentines. It's one of the only days of the year that you really get to see how single you are. Yes, there are the people that are older, and supposedly wise, who say that being single is good. It definitely has it's advantages, but then there are the people who treat you like an untouchable because you are single. Or the people that subconsciously look down on you because you are single. I know a few. And then there are the people who ask you why you are single. I don't know! Ask the girls at my school. They would know, as they are the opposite sex.

College- Recently, I have begun to look forward to college. In a way, I dread it, but I kind of look forward to it. I look forward to seeing colleges, I look forward to experiencing something new. But, at the same time, I kinda fear losing the pieces of childhood I have left. I dread leaving a school I will have been at for 13 years. That is a huge chunk of my life! I have over two years left to go, but there are a lot of people who ask where I want to go, what I am thinking about doing, where I am thinking about going. So, I have to think about it. It's just one of those things. I have gotten a lot of info in the mail about colleges, and letters, and emails, and packets. I am starting to see what is out there, which is good. It's just scary to think about. And then, there is Junior year, which is starting at me, with its evil math, and its APUSH. Yikes. I just need to survive the next few years in high school, while looking at colleges. So much to do. So little time. And life is kicking into high gear, so that will make things more interesting, for sure.

Drivers- Yes, I am a new driver. Yes, I do not have a ton of experience. But I do have shreds of common sense, and I have parents who let me drive a lot, and who are good drivers. And grandparents who can drive. So, here it goes. What is up with the pokey drivers? Maybe it's those wonderful southern drivers in Charlotte, but seriously, one of my biggest pet peeves is people who can't find the gas! It is not hard! I may speed a tad, and I may be a tad aggressive, but slow drivers are more dangerous. People who poke around on the interstate are DANGEROUS. I think that people who go slow should be pulled, not the fast ones. They usually can drive. I honk at the slow ones, but they still need to go fast! Just go 5 over. It is not hard to do, and it helps traffic move along at a good pace. I know people think that speeding is dangerous, and it can definitely be, but keeping up with traffic, not holding it up, is good! It is safe! It also doesn't drive fellow drivers to insanity:) Also, people need to put the phone down, quit texting, or call the person, and keep driving. Don't watch your phone while you are driving. It distracts, is dangerous, and makes you slow. Go through the light, don't sit there!:)

You Guys vs. Ya'll- I prefer You Guys. It makes you sound more educated, and it not dragged out. Just my opinion.


Frustration- I feel kinda unappreciated at the moment (or I did earlier today...) at my student run newspaper. I am the editor, which I love, don't get me wrong. But I have given them a lot of ideas, and new layouts, and I feel like they don't like them because they aren't the original. I came on board to give it a facelift. I did not like the layout that much. Then, I find out that they don't like where I put events, and my letter from the editor. It was apparently too long. I did that to fill in white space. Well, I had a chat with a few members, and we had some pep talks, so I feel a little better now. We shall see how this topic develops. (Written on 2.15.10. because I did not feel like it was enough space to justify its own post.)


Blogs- Yes, they can be pathetic, but they are a good way of venting, sharing, getting word out, etc. I enjoy it more than I thought I would, so if you are considering getting one, get one, and I will follow it if I think about it! It really isn't as lame as I thought it would be!

There will be more blogging to come in the future. I really enjoy this:) These are my opinions of the moment. I definitely have more, this is what I am sharing today! How do you share yours?

It's Been a While...

Hello All!

So, its been what, a year and a half since my last post... oops!! well, a lot has happened. so much i cant even write about it:P but i do want to vent on several different things. well mainly one. but who's counting??

Here goes my vent... *may be slightly negative. so if you are a wuss, or whatever, stop reading*

So, it so happens that prom is a big deal to me. God knows why, but it is. I have a very very good friend, possibly one of my best friends, who I asked to go to prom with me in OCTOBER. well, the rule at my school is that prom is a junior and senior affair. if you fall below those standards, you must go with an upperclassman. easier said than done. so this friend is a grade above me... it adds to the story, yes? She said, sure we'll go! So a few months go by, and it hits the end of January. We have discussed prom a little bit, and i'm very secure in my going. HA! Well, during january, an ex boyfriend from middle school pops up. Oh, its no big deal at the moment. they are just friends, just something random. its just a cheap movie, in a ghetto theater. Oh, i was SO mislead. So now, they are at the talking stage. So, i find out that i am ditched for prom. Apparently, he is more positive than me, and has a harder background. Shouldn't you go with the person that asked you first, and the one that can make an amazing time! Common sense? I think so. We got into a HUGE fight about prom, and haven't discussed it. So i am moving into preservation mode... must find date. must find date. I don't know why i want to go so badly to this one, other than I kinda want to show her how fun I am, and i want to party with my senior friends. oh i hope i find a date. but if i don't, i will get a killer one for next year. Moral of the story, you cant trust plans that you think are set in stone.

Please don't mock my lame venting. opinions to come in the future. if you read, thanks for appreciating my venting:)

-Eric