Immaturity

I go to school with a bunch of immature people. So immature that I think that they have reverted to the 5th grade. It never ceases to amaze me that they can be so ridiculously immature, and still have friends/popularity/what have you. Really people, we are in high school.


You may ask... how are they so immature. For starters... the guys in my grade are taking to shooting bb's at people, using pens. Like a supped up spit ball. They shoot it at people during class, during lunch, and any time in between. They think it's SO funny to hear people say "ouch" when they get hit, and think its hilarious to risk shooting someones eyes out. People shot spit balls in elementary school. We are now in high school, 5 years later. Seriously? What's the deal?


Another example... Thinking STD's are HILARIOUS in health class. Ha ha. How funny. They are like a bunch of middle schoolers.


Then, the jokes. They tell the most immature jokes on the planet, and others egg them on. Come on! It's not funny to tell jokes that you told in middle school. It's so annoying.


Then there are the actions. People in my grade just act immature. They do immature things ALL THE TIME. They think it's so funny to put the peanuts only table sign on your back, and let you walk around for 30 seconds with it on. They also think it is hilarious to hide your water bottle in the classroom and watch you look for it. They think its funny to drag their feet on your shoes while you are walking, think it's funny to start giggling for no reason during class. They treat no one with respect, and act like a bunch of  5 year olds.


Now, I don't know if this immaturity is just due to my school being a private school, or just the ages of the people in my grade. Granted, I am older than everyone in my grade at my school, and that might be why I think that they are so stupid. Or maybe, it's because there is no one to beat them up at my school, or tell them to grow up. 


I think that it is time for all these people to grow up, get some maturity, and realize that they are in high school. Crazy concept huh? We're not in middle school any more. High school is a very different place, treat it as such.

That Kind of Week...

So... it has been a particularly rough week. To start off with, I did not do so hot on an Algebra quiz. Then I had a stressful meeting with the newspaper. Then things just started to go downhill.


I am exhausted and stressed, and just fed up with it all. I have had a lot going on over the past week, and it has been one of the longest of my life. I have been told that I have been a little grumpy, which I am sure I am. I haven't slept well, except for the night I had a Tylenol PM. 


Yesterday, I had PE. That class is one of my least favorite classes. I do not see the point of running up and down a gym, chasing balls. Well, during warm ups yesterday, I had to crawl across the gym, carrying someone who weighs around 160 pounds. I have no upper body strength, so it was definitely not a good experience. So, today my arms hurt so bad that I can barely lift my arm or grab anything. Not fun.


Tomorrow, I have a math test that I have been stressing about all week. Math is one of the hardest subjects I have, due to the teacher. So, I am very nervous. I did awful in math last semester, so I have to pull up my grade so I make it into college. I need to do well!! An A is needed, for sure. To make things EVEN better, I have a huge lit test RIGHT after the math test. So I will be extremely burnt out tonight.


I feel a ton of stuff stacking up, and I have so much going on, that I just want to scream. So much to do, so little time. I need to get so much done!!


Yes, I know that I am sounding like negative nelly, but I am having one of those weeks. Hopefully, I can only go up from here... I am sure that I am driving my friends CRAZY. I am just in a hopeless mood. Also, I had a not so successful meeting with my guidance counselor this week, which only spurred on my mood. I just need a big fat starbucks, or a vacation! 


Making things even better, my parents are going out of town next week, leaving us with babysitters. They're nice people, but I always wind up doing all of the work for them. Lord knows why because the babysitters. They are payed. I am not...


But, I am going to try to be more positive starting now!! It is almost the weekend.


My question of the day is... when faced with a negative situation, how do you react?

Love?

So, today is Valentines Day. The day of love, and happiness, and togetherness. The day that people in high school, at least, are all happy, in love, and gushing about how the person they are with is the love of their life. How they will be with them FOREVER. How cute they are together. Blablabla. You get the picture.


Well, in high school, do you really know the love of your life? Is your valentine really the one? Are they your soulmate? I think not. Personally, I think that love takes time, and maturity, and that is not really something that you have in your typical high school relationship. Love is based on a wide array of things. Things like trust, loyalty, character, and really knowing the other. You can't say that you love the other person, just based off the way that they look, or the way that you feel about them at the moment. Those looks will fade, and those feelings will die. When that happens, what is left? If it is really love, you love the person within. Not your feelings, or the way that they look.


Now, I may be a little cynical. I don't think that love is a common thing. I think that lust is a common thing. Lust is when you like the way the other looks. Love is liking the person underneath. Genuinely caring about the person underneath. Today, lust is more played up than love. People think that their lust is love. If you try to correct them on that, they get defensive, and say you are a cynical person. I prefer to think of it as honesty. True friends are honest. I appreciate honesty. So, why should I withhold the honest truth from you?


The lust that people feel gives them a high. That high lets them walk all over the place, in a happy little cloud. Holding hands, making out in public. Come one people. Your PDL isn't needed. (PDL= Public Display of Lust). That honestly bothers me too. I don't need to see you grope each other all over the place. It's not necessary. It's annoying for the rest of us. We don't need to see how much you "dig" each other. You can tell us, and that is perfectly fine. Shocking concept eh?


The thing with Valentines, or as I prefer, Singles Awareness, is that the PDL's are encouraged. Embraced. If you don't have someone to lust over, or to gush over, you are an unattractive outcast. Thrown out. An untouchable. How lame are you to not have someone to lust over for a weekend. You are just pathetic. You are made to feel like you are inadequate... how dare you not have someone?


Well my point is, we need to be careful how we label love. It may just happen to be lust. It may be fake. Try to be nice to those of us who are single, and don't have the whole world lusting over us. Until next time, there is one last question...


 What is love?

Venting Over the Past Few Months

So, on December 19th, my world changed forever. My grandad died, suddenly, in an accident. He was 63, and in the prime of his life. He was taking people to their cars from a party at his house. He hit a patch of ice, and hit his head after flipping his vehicle. Needless to say, that was one of the worst days of my life. My Opa, my hero, was DEAD. Just like that. Over the next few days, digging through pictures, and living through memories, having an 1800 person visitation, and a 1000+ person funeral, I saw what an impact my Opa had on the world. I knew he was important... duh. His last name would tell you that. But, seeing all of the people, the scope of the impact, just shocked me. It showed that one person really can make a difference. You always hear that they can't, but that's a load of crap. They can make a huge difference.

The months since have been very hard. There are the good days and the bad days. The days you feel like crap, and the ones that you are stunned. The ones you don't want to continue forward, but you have to. The days you cry when you get home. The days that you want to just be. My friends have on the most part helped me through this. I feel the love from them, on the most part, and it is just great. The prayers and support help tremendously.

One thing that has made it a little harder is that a teacher at my school, who was 25 was in a tragic accident about a mile down the road from the school one thursday morning. It was just over a month past my opa, and the event dug up fresh wounds. The scabs reopened. It led to another hard week, but not as hard. We made it through. The funeral was very solum, but it honored her life. This event was also around 2 years since the Herbert brothers, who went to my school, were killed in a car accident. This incident dug up memories from then too. Not the easiest thing in the word, needless to say.

Yesterday, February 12th would have been my Opa's 64th birthday. We celebrated as a family and remembered. We watched a few videos of his life, and remembered many good memories, but it was still a hard day. There were definitely tears shed, and hearts hurting. It is the first of many birthdays to come that will be sad. But, we have to try to move forward. You can not dwell on the past, and what could have been. What you could have done. That will tear you to shreds. What you do is pray, and ask God to help you through. Yes, that is a Sunday School answer, but it is the truth. God is bigger than any crap that can happen to you, and he will help you move through tragedy. You also need to let out emotions and vent. Which is why I have this blog. Not many, if any, people read this, but it is my way to vent. Writing and music help me deal. Negative emotions bottled up will rip you apart. Positivity is key. It can be hard, and is hard, but think of the good if possible. That is something my Oma told me, and it is very true. You can not dwell on negative things. It will make you miserable. Look on the good. You will be happier for it.

The remaining question, for now is... How will you deal with the curveballs that life throws at you, and who will you lean on, or what will you lean on? When something that is a major part of your life is taken away, what will you do? How will YOU react?

While I'm At It (and full of opinions)

Political-Why does it seem like our politicians are intent on sinking the whole freaking country? it disgusts me. stupid people. like seriously, we dont need health care! if you want socialized health care, move to freaking canada. hello?? Also, the Republican retaking of Congress... it can be a good thing. But I just happen to think that we need to get rid of ALL of the politicians that have lied to their constituents. All of them. And, we need to cut pork out of the bills. And return the TARP money, FREEZE spending, and also reduce the deficit. Easy ideas. They can be accomplished, but the wonderful idiots on Capitol Hill have decided that it is a good idea to spend like money is going out of style.

Fake people- Hmm. This is a topic that I am always happy to talk about:) I go to school with a bunch of these people! People who act like they are your friends, but then the next second, they are not. It never ceases to amaze me. People, act like who you are. It is SO much easier. It really is a simple idea. If you act like who you are, more people will like you. AND you don't get caught up in a lie:)

Events- everything happens for a reason, even if we do not know the reason. everything works out in the end. we just gotta keep believing... if you stop, then what do you have? A LOT has happened recently, and I am trying to keep a positive attitude. It is hard, but I have to try. Things happen. It is your lot in life. You need to make the best, and try to see the good in what has happened.

Snow- Over the past 2 months, it has snowed three times, and two of them have been pretty good snows. I personally love snow. Not enough to live with it all winter, but enough to enjoy it every time we get it. Where I live, life slows down for snow, which can be quite annoying. But, I love how we get some time to sleep and relax, and the cleanness of the snow. It's pure white. Like washing away the bad there is. It is pretty, and the air is crisp outside when it does happen to snow. I love the smell of snow. and the way footprints look in it. I also love the way that flowers look under snow. It's just a cool thing. Every time it does snow, I try to take pictures if it in some way, shape, or form. I just like it:). There are the losers who whine about snow. They need to move to California or Florida. Snow is part of winter. Enjoy the season! (:

Valentines Day- What is the big deal with this day? Call my cynical, but I really don't have a strong love for Valentines. I prefer Singles Awareness Day, or SAD. It really gets on my nerves to see all of the happy, lovey dovey couples draped all over each other, in their happy bubbles, while those of use who are single, or those of us in high school who haven't found the love of our lives yet, get to sit and watch them. It really gets annoying. Lord forbid you be single on Valentines. It's one of the only days of the year that you really get to see how single you are. Yes, there are the people that are older, and supposedly wise, who say that being single is good. It definitely has it's advantages, but then there are the people who treat you like an untouchable because you are single. Or the people that subconsciously look down on you because you are single. I know a few. And then there are the people who ask you why you are single. I don't know! Ask the girls at my school. They would know, as they are the opposite sex.

College- Recently, I have begun to look forward to college. In a way, I dread it, but I kind of look forward to it. I look forward to seeing colleges, I look forward to experiencing something new. But, at the same time, I kinda fear losing the pieces of childhood I have left. I dread leaving a school I will have been at for 13 years. That is a huge chunk of my life! I have over two years left to go, but there are a lot of people who ask where I want to go, what I am thinking about doing, where I am thinking about going. So, I have to think about it. It's just one of those things. I have gotten a lot of info in the mail about colleges, and letters, and emails, and packets. I am starting to see what is out there, which is good. It's just scary to think about. And then, there is Junior year, which is starting at me, with its evil math, and its APUSH. Yikes. I just need to survive the next few years in high school, while looking at colleges. So much to do. So little time. And life is kicking into high gear, so that will make things more interesting, for sure.

Drivers- Yes, I am a new driver. Yes, I do not have a ton of experience. But I do have shreds of common sense, and I have parents who let me drive a lot, and who are good drivers. And grandparents who can drive. So, here it goes. What is up with the pokey drivers? Maybe it's those wonderful southern drivers in Charlotte, but seriously, one of my biggest pet peeves is people who can't find the gas! It is not hard! I may speed a tad, and I may be a tad aggressive, but slow drivers are more dangerous. People who poke around on the interstate are DANGEROUS. I think that people who go slow should be pulled, not the fast ones. They usually can drive. I honk at the slow ones, but they still need to go fast! Just go 5 over. It is not hard to do, and it helps traffic move along at a good pace. I know people think that speeding is dangerous, and it can definitely be, but keeping up with traffic, not holding it up, is good! It is safe! It also doesn't drive fellow drivers to insanity:) Also, people need to put the phone down, quit texting, or call the person, and keep driving. Don't watch your phone while you are driving. It distracts, is dangerous, and makes you slow. Go through the light, don't sit there!:)

You Guys vs. Ya'll- I prefer You Guys. It makes you sound more educated, and it not dragged out. Just my opinion.


Frustration- I feel kinda unappreciated at the moment (or I did earlier today...) at my student run newspaper. I am the editor, which I love, don't get me wrong. But I have given them a lot of ideas, and new layouts, and I feel like they don't like them because they aren't the original. I came on board to give it a facelift. I did not like the layout that much. Then, I find out that they don't like where I put events, and my letter from the editor. It was apparently too long. I did that to fill in white space. Well, I had a chat with a few members, and we had some pep talks, so I feel a little better now. We shall see how this topic develops. (Written on 2.15.10. because I did not feel like it was enough space to justify its own post.)


Blogs- Yes, they can be pathetic, but they are a good way of venting, sharing, getting word out, etc. I enjoy it more than I thought I would, so if you are considering getting one, get one, and I will follow it if I think about it! It really isn't as lame as I thought it would be!

There will be more blogging to come in the future. I really enjoy this:) These are my opinions of the moment. I definitely have more, this is what I am sharing today! How do you share yours?

It's Been a While...

Hello All!

So, its been what, a year and a half since my last post... oops!! well, a lot has happened. so much i cant even write about it:P but i do want to vent on several different things. well mainly one. but who's counting??

Here goes my vent... *may be slightly negative. so if you are a wuss, or whatever, stop reading*

So, it so happens that prom is a big deal to me. God knows why, but it is. I have a very very good friend, possibly one of my best friends, who I asked to go to prom with me in OCTOBER. well, the rule at my school is that prom is a junior and senior affair. if you fall below those standards, you must go with an upperclassman. easier said than done. so this friend is a grade above me... it adds to the story, yes? She said, sure we'll go! So a few months go by, and it hits the end of January. We have discussed prom a little bit, and i'm very secure in my going. HA! Well, during january, an ex boyfriend from middle school pops up. Oh, its no big deal at the moment. they are just friends, just something random. its just a cheap movie, in a ghetto theater. Oh, i was SO mislead. So now, they are at the talking stage. So, i find out that i am ditched for prom. Apparently, he is more positive than me, and has a harder background. Shouldn't you go with the person that asked you first, and the one that can make an amazing time! Common sense? I think so. We got into a HUGE fight about prom, and haven't discussed it. So i am moving into preservation mode... must find date. must find date. I don't know why i want to go so badly to this one, other than I kinda want to show her how fun I am, and i want to party with my senior friends. oh i hope i find a date. but if i don't, i will get a killer one for next year. Moral of the story, you cant trust plans that you think are set in stone.

Please don't mock my lame venting. opinions to come in the future. if you read, thanks for appreciating my venting:)

-Eric