It's Been a While

It's been a while since I've written on this blog. I honestly don't have time to keep it up and I know no one reads it... so... here's a rant. It may be the last on here, it may now. I'm keeping my options open. 


I've had it. I've had it with high school. I've had it with some of my friends. I've had it with drama. I've had it with misery. I've had it with people pushing the wrong things and not taking my subtle hints. I'm tired of not being loved by my friends. Or being truly cared about. I'm tired of aching. I'm  tired of hurting. 


Don't know when things will get better. All I/we/humanity can do is hope. Life feels like a long twisted road. I'm at the beginning but the fog ahead is killing me. 


I know what I have planned. I know what I want to do. The waiting to see my plans and dreams come to fruition is painful. I want to know. I want someone to freaking care. I want my friends back and I want some true friends. Some true connections. I feel broken and have felt broken for a long time. 


2011 has not been the best year. I've struggled. I've had friends die. I've had people move on. It's been a long haul. My hope is the next will be better. It can only go up. 


Until next time... or never. 
Eric.